i've killed everything that makes me human and i feel fine say when chelsea, on fire above me and i'm released to a patient generous gravity but if such levels did exist where we've all eventually been then you've all thought alike and if you've met yourself you are the divide now i'm a hanged man scolding branches in an oregon tree tangled in the roots and threatening to breed and you recite my new translation in an automated dream

where's your phone? go get your phone we've got nowhere else to go i'm so broke you're so w/rote take me anywhere we're known i'm not crazy, yeah? the devil won so i'll repeat william tell from memory lay it all on the swells and the money tree if you wanna get down with a psycho tell 'em i'm a psycho, yeah? i'm not drunk my damn luck i shouldn't have said anything we've lost our minds but we've got to eat everyone talks walk out a robbery take what you want sex on batteries drinks on the job hey, where's jeremy? we're just hanging around and you know me, yeah? now that you're a psycho

i can't tell you what it meant not sure a meaning does exist aletheia humming 'fare thee well' and i don't really know myself i can't tell you where i've been not sure the memory does exist alluring swerving pale blue dot yeah i'm sorry i got plans i can't stay long don't rape me by and by chelsea's high noon good time hymn bourbon gospel on my lips shadow box a god who looks like me out of range i am released do re meanwhile a red tide spilling limbs a kingdom in my bed selah, saleh

i wasn't ready swerving and praying can you use me? use me hineni! hineni! aiming and bailing and it suits me (endlessly out of reach) fuels me (conveyor belts to unbeing) it soothes me in search of an exit red lipstick on blue velvet where you found me (endlessly out of reach) surround me or else be seen never understand paraphrase of the siren and you know me (endlessly out of reach) and it's ugly (conveyor belts to unbeing) if only yet unclean when stole asleep

got the curve as a kid from a neighbor’s salted breath baited like a stray prayed, swayed, and waited then i went away pretend you’re her chew the dirt possess the hurt, preserve the work in the blur waited for YHWH to weigh in a latency laid me out in the pines baffling shivers up my spine i didn’t fight struck, and i cowered like a dog and i must’ve rotted in the womb some yellow-belly stretch-mark-blues degrade replay, not fade away snuck out back and dug a grave couldn’t sleep so i would eat until i’d tire of vomiting and in the shade of a panic dream magnolia’s bruised branch laughed at me carved a prayer into its limb pretended i knew what it meant sang half a hymn on the front porch then i went to the source tried a noose, but i broke loose then i watched tv and tried reciting recycled punchlines told a friend i wanted to die hit me with the ‘anyways’ and one more time i went away then we practiced our farewells then we tried touching ourselves i’ve been so goddamned depressed skimming through the passages “jesus wept.” that’s all you get deified my own passiveness blamed it on the gravity and swore myself to fantasy hell isn’t waiting translating the shape of an aching follow you out to the curb pinching my lips as we swerve stumbling around babbling about boundless summer-slumber-pavement-howling put my lord in the ground then i lost you in the crowd gospel heavies coming around bowing to the lot they found it came by air and i shot it down bummed red rum til they smoked me out it came by sea and i drank it down spilled my guts upon the mount blacked out washout in the pit slept it off with reverence dreamt she told me to ‘say when’ still unstuck, but i can’t quit waking up and i’m still drunk communing with ourself i leave the key under the mat as i slip out of your house and yeah, i feel your pain but i can’t relate suspended, not quite infinite traveling light i’ve always been leaning into the narrative graze in laze behind the wheel one more time with feeling kneeling on a modest modern translation’s waning two bit salvation came to parked on a lawn nephew went and got his gun a lug wrench in my hand i sauntered toward the man blush and setting suns